I can't believe that I am doing this, but I figured out something today and it has caused me to jump into the pool headfirst . I think somebody turned the page in my book of life and I am in a chapter that is unlike any I have read before. I don't exactly know what to think or how to feel...kind of like I remember feeling when I started college...new, scared and excited.
The thing was, I was happy in the last chapter of my book...I kinda wanted to stay there...in fact, I was just getting really good at a few things. I started to get my bearings and I liked them. I knew what I wanted, when, and why I need it to be that way. Really simple. At last, I held in my hand the remote control of life...and then...
If I had any idea that I was in charge...it has vanished... and I am not sure why, but I am ok with that. Sure, it might have been nice to have some advanced notice, but why ruin the surprise?
Why not just jolt my existence into a new reality so I have no choice, but to simply respond in faith? (I am sure this is fun for somebody...)
So, tomorrow will bring some new challenges that I can't possibly face without fear...unless, I face them down with the fear of God...yes, that's it. That's the shift in my thinking that I find so exhilarating. No one...not me...not my husband...not my kids...no one except THE ONE that really matters knows what tomorrow holds and that's all I need to know. For the first time in my life, I believe it. If He knows, then He knows what tomorrow takes and He will give me that...tomorrow!
So, here I go...this is so exciting...kinda like fresh pencils and new shoes...and the smell of textbooks and the sight of faces...some new, some familiar...and mine...a few years older and wiser and still completely amazed at my God.
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